The title of this post comes from a show I have been addicted to for the past few months, Weeds. Not the most "wholesome" show but still a very good and interesting. If you don't mind a drug based show with some off color language I think you would enjoy this one. But near the end of season five Nancy (the main character) is sitting with her younger son Shane and he said something I really like. Nancy is trying to apologize to Shane for something and he says, "It's fine, things happen, they happen everyday and tomorrow more things will happen...."
Though that may not be the exact quote, it's close enough to the point. He's right things happen EVERY day, both good and bad, planned and unexpected; that's life and we, more importantly, I need to deal with it. Everyone especially me tries SO hard to force everything to go exactly how we think they should go. That we need our lives to go in an exact perfect path, but it doesn't happen, cause things happen they happen everyday and they will happen tomorrow. Everyone just needs to deal and learn to live, enjoy the things that do go right or enjoy the wrong things that end up being good and make you happy.
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I have one other thing to address, there are 5 people I would like to address but still anonymously in this post. Now you 5 may or may not who you are but still here it is. And to everyone else sorry for the random ambiguity.
#1 - Thank you for being there when I need to talk or need to vent, you know somewhat what I am going through and I appreciate it, sorry for being an ass sometimes but you know that's how I get
#2 - I know we've had our ups and downs and our issues but thank you for listening and caring when I had a some breakdowns. The trips to the mountains with the guns always help and make things a bit bearable. Thank you.
#3 - I'm sorry for how I have treated you from time to time. I try hard to be "stable" and normal but sometimes it doesn't go so well. I am so glad you try so hard to be understanding and want to help. I really really appreciate it.
#4 - I am extremely sorry how the past 5 1/2 months have been. Good at times but it seems like bad shows up more often than not. I know how frustrating I am, I can be, and how I continue to be. I am sorry. I really am trying but I tend to struggle. Please be patient.
#5 - Things are getting better and it is really a good thing. We have had some really serious issues for quite some time now and things are starting to get a lot better and despite what people may say about it. The things we have talked about and shared recently have really changed somethings. I am sorry for how things were going and what happened. I know I have said it before and I will say it again and again but I really am.
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I know no one really cares about that last part but it had to be put up. Thanks for bearing through that with me.
Now I am making this post after 3 in the morning which means I cannot sleep and tomorrow will be an interesting day at work. I have not had my depression medication since Tuesday and I have been having some issues starting to deal with not having it. I have had a couple serious breakdowns, including tonight. I am trying to deal with it and am slowing getting to the point where I can.
Thanks for everyone's help and support.
Don't worry family, I AM FINE.
