I know sometimes it seems like all the posts are a bit onery and depressing but well... life happens that way sometimes, and sorry that you have to read that. But I promise when something happy and good happens I'll let you know.
But there are a couple of students/residents down here that I have a bit of an issue with. Lucky me it's a guy and a girl that like to sit around all wrapped around each other and lovey like and its a bit annoying. But any who last night we had an injury while some residents were playing a game and when she came in and we were trying to figure out what was wrong I was a little upset about this game causing another injury or making someone feel uncomfortable. I know it's their own choice to play the game but I figured they'd be smart enough to not hurt each other. So I told the people that for now they were done playing the game, I guess, I was a little upset and I may have come across as a little mean and I didn't mean to. The other residents kinda understood where I was coming from but these two started up right away telling me that I had no right to make up rules and enforce things I don't have authority too. I never meant to come across like I was trying to do that. I was just trying to help keep some of the residents from getting hurt and get them to stop for the night or next couple of days and I may have I have not clarified what I meant so it is totally my fault.
So I took the next hour or so and sat and talked with them ab0ut I feel like when I'm on duty I have the responsibility to look out for the health and safety of the residents but still they sat and argued that I was doing things wrong, and as we talked the real reasoning came out, I guess I'm not as good as Magnum, OF COURSE I'M NOT!!! I'm not Magnum, I haven't done this for a year already, I don't have his patience or am not as nice or laid back as him, SURPRISE!! idiots This whole injury thing has really been the only big thing I've had to deal with and the fact that this couple was crying about how I've handled things in the building wrong this year so far made me a bit pissed.
Sometimes I'm not sure if this was the right thing for me to be doing, that maybe I shouldn't stay for a full year. I don't know, I guess yet again it's just been a rough night, oh can I also mention that through out all the running around last night trying to take care of everything I accidentally locked my keys in my room, yeah GAY! So at 3 in the morning when I can finally make it to bed, I realize I can't get into my room, so I tried to find someone to let me into my room but guess what just my luck I was the only RA in the building for the whole weekend, so I tried to sleep on my tiny little couch in my apartment, when I couldn't sleep I tried eating or reading random things, I had nothing to do. So finally around 8 in the morning I HAD to get into my room soon so that I could get ready for church and so I did the last resort, I knew my window was cracked so I went outside and looked to see if I could get my screen off with out breaking it, and I could so I gently took it out and climbed in my window just in time to get ready for church. So needless to say it's been a long night.
Having this RA position and having to deal with all these students all the time is really making me second guess if I really do want to be a teacher, but if not a teacher I have no idea what I would do.
"Would you please put some pants on? I feel weird having to ask you twice."
