Quick explination..

I know I just posted something a bit off but let me clarify somthing real quick; have you ever had one of those dreams that seriously messes with you? Like the kind that you wake up and want life to be different or realize you've done something wrong? Well I had one of those the other night.


It started off with me in Utah county working for Pepsi still, I was at a store in Provo and I saw someone from high school, Analece Boothe. I had a conversation and asked about Lyric and how she was doing and that kind of stuff. She told me that Lyric had left on another mission but was in town for the weekend. At hearing that I started to panic. I rushed out of the store scared that I would miss my chance. I found her in an old house talking with friends. The instant I saw her I had every emotion come back to me that I had ever felt about her. I had to be by her. I went over and she didn't want to talk to me, she didn't even want to see me. Which I understood, all I wanted from her was 2 minutes, she agreed and I used those two minutes to explain that I was sorry for everything and I have had the worst 2 months of my life and that I missed her and wish I could go back and slap some sense into me. She looked at me, smiled and walked off with her family. Out of no where I was walking with Jared down the road talking about it and about how he is leaving on a mission too. We spoke about what Randilyn will do while he is gone and then we spoke about what had happened with Lyric and I. We came to a stop at an intersection and he looked at me and asked, "What are you going to do?"



At that moment I woke up to my alarm.



Ever since I have been confused and feeling horrbile about things that have happened, and now I'm not sure if I did the right thing. Now I know people are going to get upset and not be happy with me about this but .... oh well

My apologies

How many times can you make roughly the same mistake before you get smart enough to realize you're making life harder than it needs to be?
Everyone makes mistakes in life, it happens. But most people seem to learn from those mistakes. I on the other hand seem to never realize that stupid choices lead to harder situations. SO, with that being said, I am sorry to those of you that have been hurt/slighted/offended by my stupid selfish actions. Whether your my mom, my brothers, Lyric, Berlin, Ashley, Cha, a coworker, or old friend I am sorry. I guess I don't really know what I want in life, even when I am given time to make my decision.

"It's a baby cage."


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