As this last week came to a close all the stress and frustrations of all my responsibilities and activities kind of come to a head. between work, school, RA responsibilities, and keeping up with people both here and back in Utah county, I just have felt completely overwhelmed. I know this is part of life and I need to get used to it, I just am not used to it right now. I love being busy and having things to do because then I don't feel bored all the time, but instead I feel completely exhausted and worn out all the time. Hopefully I can start getting used to being so overloaded. And it's weird because it's not like I feel obligated to do any of the things that I do everyday. The reason my days are so packed is because I WANT them to be. Everything I do, I have put into my life because I want it there. I guess now I just need to find a place to put in some time for my self, which I have not had for quite a long time.
Different note now... I have spent the past week or so working on and finishing my letter to Olivia, I actually wrote 2 different ones, one that's a little more serious and one that talks a little more (well completely) about me. I figured she not only needs to know that I really do love her and how happy I am for her to be in that family, but also a little bit about who I am and what I'm like cause I know she'll eventually have those questions.
The other day as I was heading home from work I realized I really enjoy my job and really enjoy living in this area. I want to come back to an area that I know more people (Utah county) and have family but a part of me wants to stay here and keep this job and maybe finish school through the USU extension down here. I don't know, because I've also had the thought to come back a little earlier than planned and maybe move back at the end of December. Oh well, we'll see when the time comes.
This past weekend, also, I went camping with Lyric. It was great we went up Six Mile Canyon over by Palisades and went into this cool little spot where I backed my truck in. We built a little campfire and had hot dogs and s'mores while we just sat around and talked. When it got late we built a bed (about 10 blankets, 1 huge sleeping bag, and 1 huge egg carton pad) in the back of my truck, closed the shell and went to sleep. I was a pretty fun little trip. When we came back we went to the first half of the Snow College football game till it got too hot, I was sure I was going to melt to the seat I was in, then we went back and relaxed at my apartment. Before she went home I cooked her dinner, Pork chops rice and corn. It was a great end to an overly stressful week.
P.S. oh and yes I did spend a few days a little obsessed with my xbox, but to my defense, Halo:Reach did just come out and it is AMAZING!!.....just saying.
"Could you feather it please? Like.... Mel Gibson, circa ... 1983."
