You know I have realized, ever since blogger changed their dashboard, no body really reads this blog. I don't know why I have it still or even why I write any more. But wait! I do it to vent, to blow off steam and to say things I want to say that I know nobody will read and even if they do I can ignore people's comments about it.
So with that being said, I am tired. I am sick of how life has turned out. Every time I have gotten a chance to be happy and have a better life I have thrown it away and in turn I make stupid mistakes over and over and over again. I have nothing to show for my 26 years I have been around. Well nothing to be proud of. I am sick of making the same mistakes over and over again and I want it to stop.
I need a break from EVERYTHING. I want to just leave and push everything to the side and do nothing but be happy and do what I WANT for a couple days.
And another thing, I miss her. Yeah if you know anything of the past year you will know who I am talking about. And Mom and Brent don't call and ask about it cause I don't want to talk about it. I made stupid choices and though I know she is happier than ever and I am glad for that, I am miserable. I want to just run far far away and restart life. Some where new, a place I don't know anybody. I would love that.
I am just tired and depressed with life, I want to be happy I just don't know how.
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