In the movies

Sitting in a movie theater alone alone for a half an hour gives you a little time to think. I look back on the past year and there are some definite highs and very low lows. And now that it looks as though my stay here in ephraim is coming to a close I can't help but feel a little nervousness.
Though I am excited for what ever may come next it is hard to leave a job that I do love so much. The lack of a full time job and a sure place to live gives me a little stress and when I say a little I mean a lot. But with how things have played out in the past week I do have faith that this is the right thing to do.
I am excited to come home and be closer to friends and family. Wish me luck in the up coming weeks and i'll see you saturday!

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Today

Every day we are faced with tasks we HAVE to do no matter what, whether we like it or not.Such as getting out of bed, eating at least once, personal care, going to the bathroom,going to work, interacting with people, and countless other things. Though some of these things are a chore and we would rather not do them, it is for the better. We eat to nourishour selves, we go to work so that we can pay the bills, we get out of bed so we don't feel like a worthless pile of trash for laying in bed all day.Yet there always seem to come a day where no matter how hard you try, you just are not motivatedto do any of these things. Today is such a day.I didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't want to make breakfast, I surely didn't want to go to work, and I most definately don't want to do anything now that I am here at work.I think it all comes back to the fact that I don't feel like I should be here in Ephraimany more. I have been contemplating moving back to Utah County and I feel like that is theright thing to do at the moment. The only problem is that I have no job once I do move, letalone a place to live.I hope that sometime relatively soon I can find both a place to live and soemwhere to work.I am ready to move and the sooner the better.

Funny find

I was plaing on our work computer for the past few minutes and ran across some thing funny, my old blogs, your really need to check them out and laugh along with me!
www.xanga.com/zak_jorgensen
www.zakjorgensen.blogspot.com

Have you ever....

Have you ever come to a point where you're asleep in bed than for no reason you are awake and can't get back to sleep but you feel out of place? Like you don't belong where you're at. You can't explain why and you have no way to change anything despite the fact that you've already tried?
It's nights like these that make me really wonder what I'm doing here and why things have gone the way they have. I know every body has their own trials and their own paths in life but some just seem a little more .... unfair than others.
Tomorrow will be a new day and I may feel differently, but for know this is how I feel.

"It was at this time I realized that girl scout was a 3 story crustacean!"

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FINALLY!!

After weeks of waiting my computer is finally working again. I was being a little weird and would act all crazy and shut down or connect to the internet but tell me there was no connection and crap like that, but with some help from my bosses nephew and $25 later...presto! I have my computer up and running again. Hopefully it wont have issues anymore and it will live for a couple more years so that I can save up for a new one.
I know Cory, I need to buy a MacBook, I've known that for a long time but I am poor and have no money for even food. Any who... I am finally back online (computer wise, I've been using my phone till now)

Open Mouth ... Insert Foot

Have you ever had one of those conversations where you feel like it's going well but almost everything you say makes you feel dumb ........ yeah

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365

In one year the changes that take place in a person can be anywhere from amazing to awful.
As I look back at the past 365 days I am happy to see that though there have been some of the hardest days I have yet to encounter, I can honestly say I have become a better person. One year ago today was the start of one of the best chapters of my life. And though I caused that to end prematurely, the shred of light I see now makes up somewhat for my early year stupidity.
I am so grateful for the past year and everything you have done in that year. It's hard to belive it has been a year and still to this day I get excited and nervous every time I see you. I am sorry for being so dumb in the past year and I hope I can spend the next years making up for it. The thought of what could come next makes me genuinely happy, more happy than I've been in a long time.
Thank you so much for everything, EVERYTHING, in the past year........
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Oh what a difference a year makes.