Tuesday, April 19, 2011
My guilty pleasure
There was something I realized last night.... I love the Harry Potter series, the movies and especially the books. I don't know why I just think the story tell and the story it self are just amazing. I know that's weird coming from a 25 year old but we all have embarrassing guilty pleasures.
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Monday, April 18, 2011
To you
After so long of not talking I still cant believe what I realize when I hang up the phone. You can still get me to talk about everything on my mind, and that your laugh still makes me laugh no matter how down I am. The last time I cried was because I didn't know what went wrong but I wish it hadn't, and that feeling of having lost something great comes so quick when we talk.
It may be to little and much to late and so frustrating to hear, but every night before I sleep I miss having you near.
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It may be to little and much to late and so frustrating to hear, but every night before I sleep I miss having you near.
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Sunday, April 10, 2011
Life
I don't know why I do this to my self but as I was working on things this morning I realized I don't know what I want. I don't know who, where or what I want to be. I think I know what I want but every time I turn around I'm doing something that's completely opposite. I completely crash and burn. I can never find exactly what it is I want.
I guess for now I'll just keep trying to do what I think is right.
"I'm an island, people can visit but that's it."
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I guess for now I'll just keep trying to do what I think is right.
"I'm an island, people can visit but that's it."
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Things happen every day.....
The title of this post comes from a show I have been addicted to for the past few months, Weeds. Not the most "wholesome" show but still a very good and interesting. If you don't mind a drug based show with some off color language I think you would enjoy this one. But near the end of season five Nancy (the main character) is sitting with her younger son Shane and he said something I really like. Nancy is trying to apologize to Shane for something and he says, "It's fine, things happen, they happen everyday and tomorrow more things will happen...."
Though that may not be the exact quote, it's close enough to the point. He's right things happen EVERY day, both good and bad, planned and unexpected; that's life and we, more importantly, I need to deal with it. Everyone especially me tries SO hard to force everything to go exactly how we think they should go. That we need our lives to go in an exact perfect path, but it doesn't happen, cause things happen they happen everyday and they will happen tomorrow. Everyone just needs to deal and learn to live, enjoy the things that do go right or enjoy the wrong things that end up being good and make you happy.
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I have one other thing to address, there are 5 people I would like to address but still anonymously in this post. Now you 5 may or may not who you are but still here it is. And to everyone else sorry for the random ambiguity.
#1 - Thank you for being there when I need to talk or need to vent, you know somewhat what I am going through and I appreciate it, sorry for being an ass sometimes but you know that's how I get
#2 - I know we've had our ups and downs and our issues but thank you for listening and caring when I had a some breakdowns. The trips to the mountains with the guns always help and make things a bit bearable. Thank you.
#3 - I'm sorry for how I have treated you from time to time. I try hard to be "stable" and normal but sometimes it doesn't go so well. I am so glad you try so hard to be understanding and want to help. I really really appreciate it.
#4 - I am extremely sorry how the past 5 1/2 months have been. Good at times but it seems like bad shows up more often than not. I know how frustrating I am, I can be, and how I continue to be. I am sorry. I really am trying but I tend to struggle. Please be patient.
#5 - Things are getting better and it is really a good thing. We have had some really serious issues for quite some time now and things are starting to get a lot better and despite what people may say about it. The things we have talked about and shared recently have really changed somethings. I am sorry for how things were going and what happened. I know I have said it before and I will say it again and again but I really am.
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I know no one really cares about that last part but it had to be put up. Thanks for bearing through that with me.
Now I am making this post after 3 in the morning which means I cannot sleep and tomorrow will be an interesting day at work. I have not had my depression medication since Tuesday and I have been having some issues starting to deal with not having it. I have had a couple serious breakdowns, including tonight. I am trying to deal with it and am slowing getting to the point where I can.
Thanks for everyone's help and support.
Don't worry family, I AM FINE.
Though that may not be the exact quote, it's close enough to the point. He's right things happen EVERY day, both good and bad, planned and unexpected; that's life and we, more importantly, I need to deal with it. Everyone especially me tries SO hard to force everything to go exactly how we think they should go. That we need our lives to go in an exact perfect path, but it doesn't happen, cause things happen they happen everyday and they will happen tomorrow. Everyone just needs to deal and learn to live, enjoy the things that do go right or enjoy the wrong things that end up being good and make you happy.
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I have one other thing to address, there are 5 people I would like to address but still anonymously in this post. Now you 5 may or may not who you are but still here it is. And to everyone else sorry for the random ambiguity.
#1 - Thank you for being there when I need to talk or need to vent, you know somewhat what I am going through and I appreciate it, sorry for being an ass sometimes but you know that's how I get
#2 - I know we've had our ups and downs and our issues but thank you for listening and caring when I had a some breakdowns. The trips to the mountains with the guns always help and make things a bit bearable. Thank you.
#3 - I'm sorry for how I have treated you from time to time. I try hard to be "stable" and normal but sometimes it doesn't go so well. I am so glad you try so hard to be understanding and want to help. I really really appreciate it.
#4 - I am extremely sorry how the past 5 1/2 months have been. Good at times but it seems like bad shows up more often than not. I know how frustrating I am, I can be, and how I continue to be. I am sorry. I really am trying but I tend to struggle. Please be patient.
#5 - Things are getting better and it is really a good thing. We have had some really serious issues for quite some time now and things are starting to get a lot better and despite what people may say about it. The things we have talked about and shared recently have really changed somethings. I am sorry for how things were going and what happened. I know I have said it before and I will say it again and again but I really am.
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I know no one really cares about that last part but it had to be put up. Thanks for bearing through that with me.
Now I am making this post after 3 in the morning which means I cannot sleep and tomorrow will be an interesting day at work. I have not had my depression medication since Tuesday and I have been having some issues starting to deal with not having it. I have had a couple serious breakdowns, including tonight. I am trying to deal with it and am slowing getting to the point where I can.
Thanks for everyone's help and support.
Don't worry family, I AM FINE.
Friday, April 1, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I'm back
After a few weeks of silence, I have made it back to the blog. I'm not sure how many people will now read due to the fact that I deleted my Facebook page, FINALLY, but still I'm writing more for my own good more than anything else.
Things have been busy and stressful as ever and I am more ready fir a vacation then I ever have been. Work has gotten so busy that running it alone for half the day is starting to really take it's toll, especially when I have to go home to building problems or homework. Like tonight I would love o go home, relax, play some nazi zombies and pass out early but that won't happen cause I have a laundry list of things I have to do. Lame. But thats life I guess.
New exciting news.... I got a raise, and I knew it was coming but I thought it was going to be about fifty cents or maybe a dollar but to my surprise I actually got a two dollar raise. I am so happy and grateful for that. It's very nice
Well that's all I got for now .... Maybe I'll post again soon.
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Things have been busy and stressful as ever and I am more ready fir a vacation then I ever have been. Work has gotten so busy that running it alone for half the day is starting to really take it's toll, especially when I have to go home to building problems or homework. Like tonight I would love o go home, relax, play some nazi zombies and pass out early but that won't happen cause I have a laundry list of things I have to do. Lame. But thats life I guess.
New exciting news.... I got a raise, and I knew it was coming but I thought it was going to be about fifty cents or maybe a dollar but to my surprise I actually got a two dollar raise. I am so happy and grateful for that. It's very nice
Well that's all I got for now .... Maybe I'll post again soon.
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Friday, March 18, 2011
This is not a happy post
I am going to try very hard not to swear in this post and as the title states this will not be a happy post.
To those of you who, as of today made my day completely horrible. . . I hope bad, horrible things happen to you. Those people include the person who puked in my hall and bathroom but didn't clean it up, the kids who egged my truck, the people that have already yelled at me at work today, and of course .... My self for making my own life twenty times harder than it needs to be.
Now just so you all know I'm taking a break from life until Saturday, maybe even Sunday. Which means I will most likely not be answering my phone. It's not cause I'm mad at you it's just because I need some time alone and away from EVERYONE. I have needed this for a while and keep saying I will do it but I keep not doing anything about it, but I am this weekend so please don't try to find me. I'll find you when I'm ready.
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