Agh!! Rough night

I know sometimes it seems like all the posts are a bit onery and depressing but well... life happens that way sometimes, and sorry that you have to read that. But I promise when something happy and good happens I'll let you know.
But there are a couple of students/residents down here that I have a bit of an issue with. Lucky me it's a guy and a girl that like to sit around all wrapped around each other and lovey like and its a bit annoying. But any who last night we had an injury while some residents were playing a game and when she came in and we were trying to figure out what was wrong I was a little upset about this game causing another injury or making someone feel uncomfortable. I know it's their own choice to play the game but I figured they'd be smart enough to not hurt each other. So I told the people that for now they were done playing the game, I guess, I was a little upset and I may have come across as a little mean and I didn't mean to. The other residents kinda understood where I was coming from but these two started up right away telling me that I had no right to make up rules and enforce things I don't have authority too. I never meant to come across like I was trying to do that. I was just trying to help keep some of the residents from getting hurt and get them to stop for the night or next couple of days and I may have I have not clarified what I meant so it is totally my fault.
So I took the next hour or so and sat and talked with them ab0ut I feel like when I'm on duty I have the responsibility to look out for the health and safety of the residents but still they sat and argued that I was doing things wrong, and as we talked the real reasoning came out, I guess I'm not as good as Magnum, OF COURSE I'M NOT!!! I'm not Magnum, I haven't done this for a year already, I don't have his patience or am not as nice or laid back as him, SURPRISE!! idiots This whole injury thing has really been the only big thing I've had to deal with and the fact that this couple was crying about how I've handled things in the building wrong this year so far made me a bit pissed.
Sometimes I'm not sure if this was the right thing for me to be doing, that maybe I shouldn't stay for a full year. I don't know, I guess yet again it's just been a rough night, oh can I also mention that through out all the running around last night trying to take care of everything I accidentally locked my keys in my room, yeah GAY! So at 3 in the morning when I can finally make it to bed, I realize I can't get into my room, so I tried to find someone to let me into my room but guess what just my luck I was the only RA in the building for the whole weekend, so I tried to sleep on my tiny little couch in my apartment, when I couldn't sleep I tried eating or reading random things, I had nothing to do. So finally around 8 in the morning I HAD to get into my room soon so that I could get ready for church and so I did the last resort, I knew my window was cracked so I went outside and looked to see if I could get my screen off with out breaking it, and I could so I gently took it out and climbed in my window just in time to get ready for church. So needless to say it's been a long night.
Having this RA position and having to deal with all these students all the time is really making me second guess if I really do want to be a teacher, but if not a teacher I have no idea what I would do.

"Would you please put some pants on? I feel weird having to ask you twice."

The last week

As this last week came to a close all the stress and frustrations of all my responsibilities and activities kind of come to a head. between work, school, RA responsibilities, and keeping up with people both here and back in Utah county, I just have felt completely overwhelmed. I know this is part of life and I need to get used to it, I just am not used to it right now. I love being busy and having things to do because then I don't feel bored all the time, but instead I feel completely exhausted and worn out all the time. Hopefully I can start getting used to being so overloaded. And it's weird because it's not like I feel obligated to do any of the things that I do everyday. The reason my days are so packed is because I WANT them to be. Everything I do, I have put into my life because I want it there. I guess now I just need to find a place to put in some time for my self, which I have not had for quite a long time.
Different note now... I have spent the past week or so working on and finishing my letter to Olivia, I actually wrote 2 different ones, one that's a little more serious and one that talks a little more (well completely) about me. I figured she not only needs to know that I really do love her and how happy I am for her to be in that family, but also a little bit about who I am and what I'm like cause I know she'll eventually have those questions.
The other day as I was heading home from work I realized I really enjoy my job and really enjoy living in this area. I want to come back to an area that I know more people (Utah county) and have family but a part of me wants to stay here and keep this job and maybe finish school through the USU extension down here. I don't know, because I've also had the thought to come back a little earlier than planned and maybe move back at the end of December. Oh well, we'll see when the time comes.
This past weekend, also, I went camping with Lyric. It was great we went up Six Mile Canyon over by Palisades and went into this cool little spot where I backed my truck in. We built a little campfire and had hot dogs and s'mores while we just sat around and talked. When it got late we built a bed (about 10 blankets, 1 huge sleeping bag, and 1 huge egg carton pad) in the back of my truck, closed the shell and went to sleep. I was a pretty fun little trip. When we came back we went to the first half of the Snow College football game till it got too hot, I was sure I was going to melt to the seat I was in, then we went back and relaxed at my apartment. Before she went home I cooked her dinner, Pork chops rice and corn. It was a great end to an overly stressful week.

P.S. oh and yes I did spend a few days a little obsessed with my xbox, but to my defense, Halo:Reach did just come out and it is AMAZING!!.....just saying.

"Could you feather it please? Like.... Mel Gibson, circa ... 1983."

Baby stats!!!

So I just got back online to do some homework and I found that I had some emails from Vaughn and Amy!! I was so excited that I think now I won't be able to do homework at all.


Olivia Lea Barry
Born: 9-10-10
Weight: 7 lbs 12 oz.
Height: 21 in.

I'm so excited! She is a beautiful little girl! I'm scared to ask if she has the cursed Jorgensen finger toes. Maybe I'll ask later but anywho just a quick post about the new news!

So as I hustled back from church I was hoping that I would have an email or something like that from Vaughn and Amy just to make sure everything went okay, but still nothing, hopefully tomorrow. But also I was excited cause it's the first week of football and I have my new fantasy team, I hoped on real quick to check how my players are doing and I am KILLING!! 54 - 11 hahahaha YES!
Yesterday I was bored all day so I took the time to finish my board (well one of them), maybe its cause I was just having a lazy day but it took hours. But as of now it is done. So here is the picture of it.

"You're there,... congratulations I'm a hundred."

SHE IS BORN!!!

So yesterday I got a call about 6:50 from Stephanie Sparks, my case worker with LDS Family Services, and she told me that Berlin had the baby that day(September 10th). I was so excited, mostly for Vaughn and Amy to get this new wonderful blessing, and also for a bit of a selfish reason, I'm glad I'm a couple days away from having to deal with this whole situation. Now I can finally 100% move on and not have to worry about anything. That is such a great thought. I can't wait. I was only told that she was born and that she is okay, so when I get more information I will post it.

"Abi something. ... Abi something? ... Yes, abi normal. ... Abi normal? You're telling me that I put an abnormal brain in a 7 foot tall, 60 centimeter wide gorilla!!!"

P.S. to the last

Sorry for the crappy resolution on my pictures. I have to use my camera on my phone cause I don't have a "real" camera to use down here. . . sad day.

"This is the end of a really sad story."

For the benifit of Mr. Kite there will be a show tonight

Okay so I'm a wee bit pissed right now, I just spent the past 10 minutes writing an AWESOME post and I hit the wrong button and accidentally deleted it! I am way pissed at my self for doing that cause now I have to try and rewrite it....sorry if this one sucks!
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Well now that I am for sure staying in Ephraim I have started working on my huge bulletin boards I have in my room (with the help from Lyric). I hope she doesn't get mad at me for the pictures, though I doubt she will :) She did make the picture thing in one of the pictures. (it makes me happy) Thanks Lyric!!!
My job is crazy, its a lot to learn, the computer
program and all, but it's good. It's tiring having a
full day again. Now I get up at 7:15, work by 8:00, class at 10:25, lunch/office hour 11:30, a short break from 12:30 to 1:00, back to work by 1:00, off work at 6:00, on-line class till 7:00, on duty (at least twice a week) at 7:00 (homework/my newest hobby fantasy football{thought I would give it a try}/dinner on all the other nights I am not on duty), bed at 11:30 or 1:30 depending on the night. I am so glad that I have EVERY Saturday and Sunday off. That makes it so nice that on those late nights I may have to be up I can sleep in the next day.
Yeah, I'll admit it, I joined an on line fantasy football league. One of the guys I work with was talking about it today and it made me want to try it. I have always wanted to but never really had the time to watch football every Sunday and track stats but since I'll be in the middle of no where for this football season why not try it. Especially for free!
Well the due date came and went and no news, I don't really expect to hear any from Berlin but I'm going to send her an e-mail, cause we know she won't answer a call or text, and ask her to PLEASE tell me when she's going into labor and when baby Olivia is born. I don't care if it's her Mom or Dad or even her sister that texts or calls me, I just want to know. I think that is a very reasonable request. I did even send a couple of e-mails to Vaughn and Amy just making sure everything with them is going okay and to see how excited they are. I am so grateful for them and how blessed I am that I know them. They really are the perfect and intended family for this amazing little baby.
Well seeing as how I am totally exhausted and have to be up earlier than I have been for a while tomorrow I will be heading to bed now. Keep tuning in for more "live" updates on the boring life and activities here in good ol' E-town.
Buona Notte!!

"Could you be loved and be loved?"